That day..zhen and my other colleagues were chit chatting..and we talk abt zhen's baby and suddenly talk abt my grandfather...and tat makes me realie sad...cos i really miss him alot alot....
Abt 6years back, my healthy ah gong fell sick..and passed away in old folk's home located at Katong..with no one accompany and see him for the last time... I rem so clearly..at ard 9pm+ that night..the phone rings and there's an unfamiliar lady's voice telling us that ah gong had passed away..(all were shocked by the news) and headed straight down to the home. That was the FIRST TIME someone so close to me had leave me FOREVER!! i was so lost..didn't know how to react at the point of time..but once i reached there..i broke down...there's no word to describe how i feel at that moment. Bonely. Pale. were the words to describe the last look on my ah gong. there's barely fresh and his face was no longer the same as he was alive. i was not afraid but sad and angry. Angry is bcos i feel that if my parents and my aunt had nv send my ah gong to home..i believe his conditions will not get worsen and he will definately be happier.. did i mention i volunteer to take care of him? Yes. I did. but they disagreed. What else can a sec 4 student do at that time? I can only feel unfair and angry. Unfair abt how his own daughters can be so mean and heartless..before he fell sick..everyday he went to my parents' shop and slog from morning til night..but what he get frm them? Nothing but harshness. Nobody would be happy to be sent to Home. i blame myself for not able to convince or stop them. At the wake, i think i'm the only one that cried from the very first day til the very last day of his wake and even now and then..whenever i think of him or dreamt of him..i cried. He's one of my loved ones who dote me since i was born. He's always so kind and happy although he always quarrel with my ah ma but i can say he's a very good ah gong!
Char's advise: Treasure your loved ones when they are around and don't live life with regrets. And Most importantly, if you don't want your kids to do the same to you, you must jolly well set a good example. DO NOT SEND YOUR FOLKS TO HOME. *Warning*
